Protecting Your Energy

I know “Protect your energy” seems to be one of the most used hashtags lately but nothing could be more important. One of my mother’s daily affirmations to me and my sister were to never let anyone steal our joy. Over the past couple of years I’ve dimmed my light. I’ve let people into my life and allowed them to stay when they had no place or positive purpose for me.

I question why I have allowed these people into my life? People that mistreat me, put me on the back burner, betray my trust, manipulate me, hurt me. When years ago someone giving me red flags would have had me instantly turn on my heel and walk in the other direction I’ve now allowed them to sit and fester in my life.

The answer ... I can look internally and solve this hypothesis. I’ve let these people who have no positive intention or true caring for me to stay because I’ve tried to use their presence to fill a void. A void in my spirit and heart that absolutely no one else can even attempt to fill. Allowing these harmful people hold a presence in my life only dimmed my light slowly but surely.

My parents have told me that people are drawn to my ‘light’, the things that make me special and unique. God gave me it and I believe that it’s intertwined with my spirit. You have it too.  Cue Common’s  The light. (If you haven’t heard this song go ahead and ‘do your googles’ because, this song will explain what I mean if my definition wasn’t effective enough.)

I’ve dimmed my light by having people in my life who may not openly tear me down but with each lie, each time I’ve been taken for granted, each time I’ve been used or manipulated my worth has been diminished. Thank God for reflection and renewal! While I’m still hurt.. still being hard on myself, (remember I’m still on the journey of positive self talk and trying to not be so critical of myself) there is something refreshing about realizing where I’ve gone wrong. Now I can move forward use this emotional  scar as a reminder of where I’ve been and to not make the same mistake twice. 

So yes I’m protecting my energy, my heart, more importantly my God given light! No one is like me and there is no one like you. That light, your spirit is everything don’t take it for granted. Don’t let just anyone bask in it. Don’t allow anyone to diminish it. Protect it and keep shining but stay woke toxic people come in many different shapes, forms, and behaviors.

It’s ok to say no to people. It’s ok to walk away from situations that don’t serve you. It’s ok to put yourself first. If that’s what it takes to keep your light and energy bright. Do what you have to do to ensure that you will be well mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Keep that light beaming!